Believer

I have always been the one to question just about EVERYTHING. I always want to know why things are done, how things work, reasons behind everything etc. Lately I have been questioning my beliefs- as life has been kind of difficult. Thinking that there HAS to be someone or something driving my life and others. The other day I posted a bulletin on Myspace about how I was feeling, and a co-worker (who happens to be LDS) wrote me back a scripture that really made me feel better. I am not keen on church b/c I don't like all the singing and praying as a group (big groups of people make me really nervous) but I am still very spiritual. I strongly believe in the meaning of the cross, but have always been skeptical about the Bible. As of now- I have been googling like crazy, and reading what I can, pertaining it to my own life and feelings. I'm happy to announce officially- I'm a BELIEVER.

I have always been the "good girl", watching out for others, trying to see the positive in all things. (When first dating my now husband- he told me that I live in a world of rainbows and butterflies _or bunny rabbits {can't remember exactly}) I have high expectations of myself and others, I like to think that I am sincere and thoughtful- to an extent. I have found that I talk to GOD when I'm driving, as this is when I'm by myself and most comfortable. I don't like to say the word "praying" so much, and I just like to air my grievances, my hopes, my wishes etc. I know that GOD controls all things in my life, but its up to me to put them to work. I can't just sit back and wait for some "MIRACLE" to happen, I have to live being the best person I can be, and Miracles will be acheived.

Happy "faithful" Friday
Sara